AI Researcher

31/08 - Stagnent

• Been working on reflecting on my grey-zone decision yesterday and using RL termonology to recognise my mishaps. It has been quite useful to understand where I went wrong and how to not let it happen again methodologically.
  • I feel a lot better now. No more heavy anxiety and overthinking perpetually throughout the day. Just taking it very slow to ease back into a new normal. It's a bit weird because i didn't talk to any of my close friends today -- not sure whats happening. No communication notifications all day at all. Super weird.
  • My sleep schedule is a bit fucked -- been getting 10hrs sleep, waking up at ungodly hours of midday and trying to go to bed at 12 again so i lose like 4hrs of my day, lol. i want to get back into waking up at 8am though. it was a lot better and i enjoy the sun. it makes me feel a lot happier relative to the void of night.
  • Feeling a bit down before i head to bed. dont feel like im making any progress at all and life feels very stagnent. i should cut myself some slack though bc i quite literally went through it for the past 6 days & i didnt go to the gym today :(. its ok. im sure some sleep will help out...i just find myself not wanting to sleep and distract myself all the time with whatever, be it work, yt videos, checking social apps ik dont have any notis...i wonder why my mind is trying to be distracted. anyway, moving on. will try to sleep and see how i feel tmw.
• Today I writing down some RL and manifold math ideas today by actually defining things with let ... and assume that .... It was cool to play around with vectors of state and trying to filter actions using certain state -- very hard problem. I was writing an example after the definition and realised I hadn't defined transition maps and was like "oh shit, need to do this" but the time is about to turn to 01/09/25 and im quite tired so ill leave it up for tomorrow.